It’s nothing like a filtered capture on social media – well-behaved babies or an organized home stocked with educational toys.motherhood
The naive pre-baby me never knew that motherhood is raw. Being a mother is the most exhausting, emotional, rewarding and life-enhancing journey with its own set of challenges. The little creature does not come with any manual so you are afraid to make mistakes. That tiny being seems fragile and you are scared to give it even a scratch. You are on your toes all the time. It’s beautiful though, it smells cute. Trust me, linger your nose on that cheek and you will only smell love.
Every night, I collapse into bed only to wake up just as tired as I felt when I laid down. But for all the emotionally taxing moments, I’m rewarded with love beyond compare. Before my first son was born, I never knew I could love in this capacity. Yes, feeling something so purely and deeply comes with some baggage. I only realized how strong I was after becoming a mother. I can withstand pain like nobody’s business.
It’s funny how I survived being a mombie – a sleep-deprived mom. This journey is beautiful, it’s mine and it completes me. It takes every bit of my energy and then falls asleep like nothing ever happened.
I quietly went to my little monsters and whispered “I love you” in their ears, a peck on their cheeks and sit here writing… One day, my floor will no longer be littered with toys. I won’t find cereal under the car seat and I won’t even think to grab a package of wipes before I head out for a day of errands. One day, my little ones will be grown and the messes will gradually fade away…
I’ll miss it all. So, for now, I’m embracing it, the love and the mess that comes with it. I embrace the clutter and the cuddles, the spills and the snuggles. I’ll take it all because that is where the beauty lies.
From a not-so-perfect Mama
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Author’s Bio
Mariam Ansari hails from the exotic country of Tanzania but has chosen to settle down in India. A multilingual girl with a degree in English Literature and a flair for writing,became an social media influencer.At present Content & Communication Head for UNIMO.
